Z a e r y n

Annyeong~ ^^

2011-03-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

Waargghh~!! *jerit sekuat ati*
Im so tired..
today is my 3rd days.. what im doing?
IM WORKING.. ok?! duhh~
Nothing much about this.. my Boss (a Doctor) look fine.. not too harsh... The staff (my colleague) seems like fine too..
Like what i've said.. nothing much.. hihi
so.. just looking forward for next few days.. what will happened..!!

So... Chaw~!! ngee!! ^_^

Two Thousand Eleven

2011-01-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

My 1st post for this new year... 2011~!!!

It's been so long from my last entry right? wahh~ I miss my blogging.. hahaha..
Anyway, there have so many things happened lately.. It's all kinda heart-ache for me.. but still I not found anywhere that I can say it out... sorry.. I'm not so blunt if it's about my own feeling.. I'm not used to say it out loud.. because for me, I'm not see anyway that my feeling would be better if I do so.. hahaha... L O O S E R !!!
So what? I know my own self... For now.. I'm not need anybody else to see my true self...
It's up to u to judge how and what I am... I'm not really care what are u thinking bout me...

So.... enough for now... See ya~!!! ^_^ v

Happy Birthday

2010-05-15T00:24:00.000+08:00

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y

Her....

WANTED!!

NLailiS

14th May 198*

Saegilchukahae... Ajumma~

may God bless u and ur life oso..

smile oweyz..

u r my friend meyh.. dont forget me ne?

and...

H A P P Y B E L A T E D B I R T H D A Y

her..

WANTED!!

*DilaA

12th May 198*

Darl~ love u..

Miss u so much~!!

See u *tomorrow

*coz tomorrow we will meet and take our result.. huhu

T__T

p/s:: waiting for my beloved birthday.. soon~!!

Good Nite darl...

2010-05-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

J A E C H U N S U M I N H O

Good nite my love..
even until tonight i'm still don't get your truly love...
but i'm still put my heart on you...
i will stay for you...
i know that we never been together...
but, as long as you show your love to me...
i will always pray for your happiness..

S E E U S O O N M Y A N G E L

p/s:: I'll keep pray.. don't forget.. we keep the faith.. E T E R N A L L Y

Jiwa Kacau

2010-05-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

J I W A K A C A U

uurrgghhh~!!

i cant think in a good way now~!!!

i dont know what way im suppose to choose now..

i cant make decision now.... D O N T P U S H M E ~!!!!!!!

Comeback

2010-05-09T15:23:00.001+08:00

I'm cold!!!!

because it's raining day out side.. hahaha

*sigh*
after a week i push my mind to make a biggest decision and i've ask some people opinion about it too.
So, at last i make the decision. even though i have no heart with this decision, but i have to do it so.
Okay2.. i will stay by my love side now. even i can't imagine how can i do this, but i NEED to do it just for TWO people that i love in this world. i can't just see him suffer because of me. i can't stand with it. i know that they never show that they love me as much as i wanted, but i do love them so much. kinda stupid though. but what to do. im a big girl. so i need to consider what i think its good for me and also for all people around me.

ARRGGHHH.. im not in the right mind. Help me out from this H**L.. WTH~!!!!

Fine.. i surrender.. i will COMEBACK to you guys for your 'happiness' even im suffer.. =__= "

I H A T E B E I N G A G O O D G I R L F O R M Y P A R E N T S

p/s:: i wish i have no heart. so i will stop yelling to my life~!!!

=__= "

Mummy

2010-05-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

Ahhh~ i'm just realize that i'm a VERY lucky girl in this world.. and i'm just realize too that i'm a VERY silly girl in this world...
Wonder why? because i'm never satisfied with what i have. i always want more and more.

Btw.. Mother's Day just around the corner... No.. it's tomorrow though. Just have a few hours for the day. i want my mum now.

H A P P Y M O T H E R S D A Y ! !

Mummy.. i just want to say that i do love u so much.. i know that i'm never thanks to you for your care and love that you give to me. just like what i said before. im never satisfied for what i have. i always want more and more *sorry.. im silly again for repeating it* i feel wanna hug u now mummy. but you are not by my side now. i'm just miss you now. mummy, im sorry for what that i've done to u. if i have hurt u.. im sorry.

M A M A I L O V E U !

P/S:: From your naughtiest daughter ever and forever.... ^__^ v

Intoxication

2010-05-08T16:31:00.000+08:00

I'm sad...

I'm cry...

I'm numb...

I'm sick...

Do they know what i feel? NEVER~!! Why? because they never want to know how I am.

I'm happy...

I'm laughing...

I'm smile...

Do they know what inside me? NEVER~!! Why? because they never try to know me.

Thank god I still have some people around me that still wanted to care about me. But sorry for saying this, I'm still not satisfied yet. Am I selfish? Yes, I am. Do I care? Never!
Am I too demand to get a wonderful life? Yes, I am. Because I'm tired be a innocent and naive person. I hate it. Do you know how I feel? No! Don't you dare to say it YES! i will cursed you.
I just want to say thanks to those people that call them Cassiopeia and also to 동방신기.. because of them my life become brighter again.. everytime I'm with them.. I feel life in a new world.. nothing can disturb us..

p/s:: Always Keep The Faith~!!!

Let it be...

2010-04-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..

my sleep.. ZzZzzzz~

MOODness..

sleepy =__= "

Some people said that..

*If u love someone.. just let they're happy with their own way*

is it??

then how about our heart? how about our feeling?

Just let it be hurt?

Honestly.. i'm tired being A.L.O.N.E

>> HIM <<

i wanna know him

i wanna meet him

i wanna talk to him

i wanna be friend with him

i wanna care about him

i wanna make him happy

i wanna make him smile *again*

i wanna HUG him

i want him.......

p/s: i felt cold without u baby.. someday i lay my love on u... baby i dont wanna lose u now.. just one.. my only one... joongie~!!! ♥

People say

2010-04-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..

One thing that others say as F.A.M.I.L.Y

MOODness..

Sleepy *drowziness*

One of my friend said that...

"when your world seems to become dark and crashing down, and the people you thought you trusted have betrayed you, you just need to SMILE. Smile, and make them wonder why."

The problem now is.. when we were betrayed with someone that we TRUST.. i dont think that we can smile again... the pain is so deep... its need a special treatment.. its cant be treated by the word SORRY..

But some ppl say that...

"Never trust people"

Then how about our family? we cant also trust them? Then with who we need to trust?

For me, I will do trust ppl that I think I can share everything to them. I'm is a type of person that easy to trust ppl myb.. that's why I always getting hurt if ppl that I TRUST was betraying to me.. sigh

Nothing to say la... it's what ppl are.. never appreciate what they have.. never thanks if they get something good.. never say sorry if they really need to.. never look what 'inside', just look at the 'outer' part..

p/s:: this post is related to my friend.. i've think about her.. that why this post was release.. hoho peace darl

Yay~!!!

2010-04-02T12:58:00.000+08:00

~~THINKing about..~~

what happen to me? *dizzy*

~~MOODness..~~

happy+heaven

^__^ v

According to my mood NOW..

I'm Happy~!!!!

Yay~!!!!

Even i know that this is just temporary... but never mind.. as long as im feel happy i will enjoy it as much as i can.. so after this if im feel sad or wanna to cry.. i will cry all my day w/o any doubt.. am i rite? hahaha~

I will laugh... i will smile... i will be-crazy... if im feel happy...

But.. if im sad.. u will never know how i am, where i am and what im doing.. *O_o Oh~ im sound sadistic now..*

Ahh~

i miss my friend...

Miss SEKY~!!! where r u..ha?

plz respond~!!!!

Last word NOT The end

2010-03-26T15:59:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..

what Im doing here actually???

MOODness..

Holiday Time~!!! ^__^ v

Last week i had my LAST/FINAL exam for my LAST/FINAL semester..
Ahh~!!
i wanna scream out to whole world to tell them that "IM FINALLY FREE" .. LOL~ ^__^ v
Yea~ im free from all my notes... im free from all my stressoe... im free from all my tiredness... and FINALLY.. im free from the S.T.U.D.E.N.T title... huhu
what-the good feeling huh?! YAY~!!!

*huh~ i know that im too happy here.. @___@ (drooling my eyes)

NEW WORLD~!! Im Coming Yo~!!!! ^__^

but...

im not ready yet... HOwwwww~???

Waking in early-morning for working ( x ) > not ready yet~

Working from 8am to 5pm.. NON-STOP ( x ) > not ready yet~

Need to get-along with public ( x ) > not ready yet~

Give the HAPPY-SMILE to my "Boss" to show that im ready to work with them ( x ) > not ready yet~

Working for the whole week... except for weekend ~~*may be*~~ ( x ) > not ready yet~

I cant hang-out with my friend yet like when im as a student ( x ) > not ready yet~

~~AARRRRRGGGHHHHH~!!!!!!~~

Im scared i cant stand with this~!!!!! HOW?? TT____TT

yea...yea...
i know that im too silly... too annoying... too childish.. huhu
what to do.. im never do a works before...
1 thing that i know now is.... I'M NOT READY YET~!!!

~~p/s:: i need some counseling... plz help me~ T__T~~

Lie

2010-03-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
exam...exam...exam~ ZzZzZzz~

MOODness..

dying~!!!!

why out there have some people that get used to say a lie?

myb dorg malu ngan hakikat sebenar n try to create a LIE so cerita dorg akan lebih hebat n menarik... is it??

NON SENSE~!!! duuhh~

=____= "

what ever it is... dont u think that a LIE that u say is so mean to others ppl that heard it?? they myb so believe in u, about ur story.. but atlast.. it's just a LIE.. Oh My GODness... if i knew someone do that to me.. i will throw a brick to them.. hohohoho~

@____@

Yup, i cant denied that every single person have say a LIE to others.. hihihi~

but it's depends on the LIE.. myb sometimes its for a good way..

i meant untuk menjaga hati orang laen..

n for a bad way.. a LIE that created to spice up a story.. ~~*sigh*~~

whatever~!!!!

the important things now is whos that have a say a LIE..

plz keep ur own secret.. hihihi

bcoz sometime a fact is too bitter to know

*SIGH*

p/s:::: what i've say just now???? *blur* ^___^ v

my heart's word

2010-02-20T16:02:00.000+08:00

~~THINKing about.~~.

my friend...Miss 'ADILA

~~MOODness..~~

Boring~!! =___= "

yea.. i know that im a bit silly now.. becoz this is my 3rd post for today.. i dont know why im too "rajin" today.. haha

so i hope u enjoy this song... enjoy~!! ^___^ v

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart

I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO.... And theres a couple words I want to say

chorus: For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time I`ll be loving you....loving you
For the rest of my life Thru days and night I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I...I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together in Jannah

Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
OOOO.... And theres a couple word I want to say

*Repeat Chorus

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt And I`m singing loud that
I`ll love you eternally

*Repeat Chorus

I know that deep in my heart..

*credit :~~: FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE - MAHER ZAIN~~

www.iluvislam.com

How Could U

2010-02-20T15:12:00.000+08:00

~~THINKing about..~~

my CREEPINESS~

~~MOODness..~~

lurved~!!!

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

*credit: Taylor Swift-You Belong With Me

p/s: this is i made just for U.... Mr.H ♥____^ v

suka suki

2010-02-20T10:39:00.000+08:00

~~THINKing about..~~
mu future life

~~MOODness..~~
alone.. kelaparan...
huhu... T___^

Bosan

Dok uma sorang2

Kelaparan tahap dewa

Risau ngan hidup ku akan datang

Rindu Kawan-kawan saya

~~*mana mereka???*~~

NAK NGOK MOVIE~!!!!

p/s::: sape mau teman saya angkat tangan~!!!!!

Will be mine???

2010-02-07T20:23:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
my 3 days CAMPING at SG. CONGKAK, HULU LANGAT, S'NGOR

MOODness..
Happy + Heaven + Miss 'HIM'

*SMILE*
I'm soooooo~ happy now.. * i think i already a long time not feels this kind of feeling..huhu*
actually.. idk why im so happy.. hihi ^___^

last week.. aku g ikot my dad g camping ngan student2 die.. FYI.. my dad is a lecturer at Cyberjaya University..
so.. ku pon gedix2 mau ikot gak.. seriously.. sgt2 best.. even a bit boring.. bcoz xda activity yg melibat kn aku.. so keje aku, my friend and my sis just makan, mandi sungai and merayap.. hahaha..
part yg best.. time camping tu mata and hati aku ada sangkut kat sorg mamat ni.. he is one of my dad's student... even die xda la hensem mana pon.. but hes so sweet and a bit cute.. hohoho~ pengakuan berani saya..
saya rasa hati saya sgt sngkut kat die.... bila ag nk jumpa die ek? huhu

p/s:: mau scandal ngan awk le??? to:: ------ ~!!! ^_____^ v

Chuu~!!! ♥♥

Dear GOD

2010-01-08T18:32:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
Exam, Notes, Paper, Sleep ZzZzzz...

MOODness..
sleepless... =___= "

Family, friend, and all people around me sometimes they will make me happy and sad
sometime im sick bcoz of them.. so i feel better when im alone.. but im also feel scared when im alone.. when im alone i need all people whos always around me
i know that im too selfish and not to thanks to the GOD.. im never satisfied with all things that i have.. i always wants more and more than what i have.. im never appreciate what God already gave to me..
i have family but im never appreciate them until i was away from them..
i have friend but im never treat then nicely until they leave me..
i have people around me but im never look at them and stay with ego..

Now, im say like a person that lose her mind.. lose her life..
i just have my own trash body.. that empty with love and happiness..

Ya Allah,
berikan lah aku kekuatan
agar aku boleh menghadapi hidup ini, ya allah
aku takut aku lemah
aku takut aku tak boleh nak menghadapi cabaran duniawi
kuatkan lah semangat ku
kuatkan lah iman ku
kuatkan lah hati ku
agar aku tetap di jalan mu
amin...

They Love Me

2010-01-07T20:30:00.002+08:00

THINKing about..
my exam next week... 11 Jan - 15 Jan 2010

MOODness..
Miserable+Hollow+hugging

Ahhh~!! feels like want to hugging someone... emm... to comfort me up.. but i have nobody here.. i'm AlonE

But people, please don't think that i have no friend.. i have.. but they're not with me now..

All my friend~!!! please come to me.. NOW~!!! i need u...
Yea2, i know i'm sound like a psycho+sadistic person here.. but this is who i am.. i can't help it from being this kind of person.. can you guys tell me how i need to do to make more 'F.R.I.E.N.D'???? where i can find a loyal friend??? where can i find a friend that can make me happy??? where can i find a friend that can stop my sadness???
i need this kind of friend.. NOW~!!! if u have one please give me atleast one.. T___T

along my life.. i have not so many friend (i meant a BFF..ok??!!) but now i really need to thank to GOD becoz now i have friends that i can trust.. honestly.. i love them (but i dont know even they love me or not. hahaha)
they always with me when i need them.. they always make me smile... and... i think.. they do said that they love me (even only once they said that word huhu)
I love my friend.. i know that i'm never say it out but trust me that i really do love them so much.. but now when i'm start think to say it out.. we have to take our own way.. means, we need to separate.. they will no longer stay beside me.. why we need to separate?? we were done our Diploma for 3 years.. so now is the times for practical.. since we are from a different state.. so we will having our practical in different hospital..(aww... so sad huh??!! T___T)

plus For Miss 'J'...
is it we are still friend???
i know u 3 years ago.. mhen i start my study here.. we share everything.. i will never forget u.. but suddenly u go away from me.. i dont know why... seriously.. i dont know 'J'..
is it im hurt u? if yes.. please forgive me.. im just a ordinary person.. sometimes im not realize that i do wrong.. but please remind me..
please forgive me.. can u? i know that its hard to forgive someone.. but i really begging u..
sometime i really want to call my self 'a stupidest ppl' bcoz im not clear out our problem before.. but trust me.. i dont know what really happen between us.. please forgive me...

p/s:: friends is a precious thing in my life.. Friend~ i lov u all~!!!

Fake Smile

2009-12-23T14:37:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
tommorow i have EXPERIMENTAL DESIGN quiz .... ^____T
MOODness..
Happy with my BFF

usually we'll smile when we're happy, when we're enjoying something and when we're in love to someone or something.... isn't it??
but sometime we NEED to smile to make others people around us happy.. it's we can call as a FAKE SMILE...
is it with a FAKE SMILE can make US happy too instead in a way to make others happy???
No... sometimes its can make us more hurt and sad...
but for me... i used to make a FAKE SMILE to hide my feeling and to make my friend those that around me feel comfortable..
unfortunately... not all of them can happy with my FAKE SMILE... they will feel sad with it.. but i can't help it.. bcoz with it i can forget all my miserable life...
FAKE SMILE.... please stay with me... i need you...

p/s:: i dont know what i want to say actually... just merepek and meraban di sini..
lalala ^___^ v

Endless Moment

2009-11-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
when i suppose to start my TARGET~!! -__-"

MOODness..
Loneliness... @__@"

I love all my family member. Even though I'm not say it out, but please trust me that I do love them so much with all my heart without any doubt. Yeah, I know sometimes I'm too rude by saying that I hate them, but its just my *devil* heart that can't see the real feelings about how the family is.

Sometimes i will sad because of them, i will crying because of them, i will damn sick because of them. but i also put this on my mind, what ever i do, where ever i go and how many people i meet, my family still the only one that really understand me. And i will always put them on my TOP list. without them, i dont know even i can still standing on the earth just like now or not. i dont know if they not with me along my life i can stand strongly in my trouble life or not. but seriusly, i dont think so. if they not with me, i will make my own way to commit suicide my self. thats i really sure.

My family is my endless moment. I will never forget them.

p/s:: i think i'm too emo now. better i continue my work on my FF.. ♥__♥ v

Heart~s

2009-11-19T16:13:00.002+08:00

THINKing about..
what I need to do TOMORROW~!!

MOODness..
O_O!! white world

*DEEP SIGH~!!*

I have [empty] heart to back to ~~Shah Alam~~ this nite

I dont want to back there

I want to stay with my family

I have nobody there

I'm alone when i'm there

I have nothing to do when i'm there

I will sad when i'm there

I'm not happy when i'm there

I'm scared when i'm there

I'm sick when i'm there

I hate when i'm there

I will be crazy when i'm there

Damn hurt when I'm there~
Nothing to do now, just prepared myself being a Psychotic Patient soon if this things not stop from now on~!!

p/s ::: Can I be a person that not have feelings at all? So, i will stop yelling to my life~!!

Action vs Scary Date

2009-11-17T21:55:00.001+08:00

THINKing about..
still about my new semester Nov '09

MOODness..
Starving~ but n.o.p.e~!!!!

Really addictive to having 'date'

RAGING PHOENIX

# 12 NOV 09 > 08:30 pm - ~~Checked~~

# 14 NOV 09 > 07:50 pm - ~~Checked~~

Zaeryn = seriously enjoy watch this show. Love the way they're fight.

Heart = ♥♥♥♥♥

2012

# 17 NOV 09 > 12:30 pm - ~~Checked~~

Zaeryn = 50/50. i have not in the mood at that time.

with the 'fridge' hall and no manners boys, so nerve-wrecking~!!

But it's really make me saw the right way now.

So scary when I saw our wonderful world now become a night-mare to us.

This show, for the first time make me goosebump.

Heart = ♥♥♥♥

yummy~ ^___^

Forgiven

2009-11-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

# Is it too hard to begging others forgiven??

I found one of the way to get other people forgiven if we do something wrong to our parents, friend, teacher or etc.

# I wonder is it this way will work to us???
- who's really wanna to try it first?? LOL~

- credit to Sir. Ibrahim-

sir-ib.blogspot.com

Tanjobi Omedeto~!!

2009-11-14T15:51:00.001+08:00

THINKing about..
My REGISTRATION DAY for new sem NOV '09 on this 20th NOV
MOODness..
SADistic Smile

♥~20th Birthday~♥

My Birthday CAKE ~ ~~yummy~~..

Chessy Blueberry Cake

.:WISHING LIST:.

~~Via my SE K530i~~

# Amy [Ahmad Helmi~my beloved bro] :: 12:01 am
# 'Adilah [my BFF] :: 12:09 am
# My beloved Aunty :: 12:10 am
# My beloved Sister :: 6:28 am
# My beloved Sis-in-law :: 7:31 am
# My Lovely MUM and DAD :: 7:34 am
# My Darling Lyan (ELLE) :: 7:51 am
# My Most BFF Miss Seky :: 9:15 am
# My HM Princess Vina :: 11:30 am
# My RM@HM Fathin :: 12:13 pm

~~Via my~~ ~~FACEBOOK~~

# My Cassie BFF [YunJae Aree Cheol] :: 2 am ++
# My muchuk Dayah :: 7 am ++
# My senior DPH :: 8 am ++
# My most BFF Miss Seky (again) :: 9 am ++
# My x-CM [elis] :: 11 am ++
# My FB-ing buddy [Marie Sama] :: Sun 5 am ++

p/s:: yeah2~ i know there have not so much ppl wishing me.. but i think is enough for me edy.. at least out there still have more than 1 ppl put me in their memory.. thanks to all.. ^____^

How it Feels

2009-11-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
My Tired Brain

MOODness..
Wondering~!!

How it feels?
I've done reading one FansFiction that wrote by one of my friend. Her FF is so ~~HEART THROBBING~~. I don't know even it's really heart throbbing or i'm the one that felt it. haha~. but seriously i can feel it so much now. The latest chapter that i read just now is something about friendship, taking care, life's problem, felt alone and our believe in God.

Something was playing in my mind now. How the feels when we're was taking care by others? is it good feelings? is it i'm ever felt it before? but how come i don't know how is that? or i'm the one that not felt it to? haih~ i hope i can remember every single times i've been taking care by others. Atlest i can know how it feels.

Is it when someone said that he/she worried about us, that's mean they care about us? I think it is. But how about if they not say that things, is it they not care about us? How to knew it?
Is it with hugging someone can show that we're care about them? It's not mean that the PERVERT hugging, but the WARM hugging from someone to his/her parents, brother/sister, friends or everybody around them. Honestly, i like to be hugging or hugging someone. Is that means i care all of them? I don't know because i think that its my habits [maybe].

*SIGH*

I really want to know it. But how? I don't know either all people around me care about me or not. Because sometimes i feels like i'm just a burden when i'm beside them. I feels like they not likes me at all. I feels like they not need me in their life too. So, because of that, i always decided to stay away from others. because of that I like to be alone. because of that too I feels like out there have nobody love me. I always felt alone even though have many people around me. Why is that? Dear God, please give me the answer.

I really want to know, HOW IT FEELS~!!!

p/s:: still searching for my TRUE LIFE~!!

Bad Person

2009-10-22T09:12:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
own SELF

MOODness..
sleepy ZZZZZ~

Am i too BAD?
Am i too SELFISH?
Am i too ANNOYING?
Am i too EGO? - Yes, I am-

kenapa semua orang nak jauhkan diri dr saya? adakah itu salah saya, atau keadaan yang menyeksa saya?
Walaupon itu salah saya, xbole ke saya dimaaf kan? perlu ke saya dihukum sebegini? kenapa nak avoid saya sampai camni sekali? saya ade wat salah yang tak bole dimaafkan ke?

saya tau saya banyak bersendirian dan tak hirau kan orang disekeliling saya. tapi itu salah saya ke?

kadang2 memg saya selesa bersendirian tapi itu tak bermakna saya nak bersendirian selama2nya. saya pon ade naluri nak bersama ngan kawan2, hang out same2. mungkin gak mereka tak mengenali saya atau saya yang tak benarkan diri saya difahami. itu salah saya gak ke?

saya tau saya agak membosankan. saya hanya harap kan orang laen bercakap ngan saya dulu baru saya akan bercakap balik dengan die. itu salah saya gak ke?

saya tau awak takkan dapat banyak perhatian bila awak bersama dengan saya. sebab saya tak suka untuk menonjolkan diri di khalayak. itu salah saya gak ke?

saya tau awak akan bosan dengan saya, sebab saya buka nye reti sangat nak bersosial dan pergi ke tempat2 awam macam awak pergi ngan mereka2 tu. itu salah saya gak ke?

saya bukan nak tagih simpati orang, cuma nak gak tau ape salah saya dan adakah itu salah saya. bukan ke benda2 tu suma depend kat sesetengah orang tu. bukan suma orang same. dan tak de sape yang perfect kat dunia ni. so, normal la if saya pon ade kelemahan.

p/s:: saya pon xtau salah sape. saya xle nak salah kn orang, sbb saya tau diri saya pon xbetol sangat. ade ag banyak kelemahan yang ade dlm diri sy ni..

Love Story

2009-10-19T15:50:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
L.I.F.E

MOODness..
Heaven~!!!

TAYLOR'S SWIFT - LOVE STORY

We were both young when i first saw you

I closed my eyes

And the flashback starts

I'm standing there

On the balcony in summer air

See the lights

See the party, the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd And say hello, little did i know

That you were romeo,you were throwing

pebbles

And my daddy said to stay away from juliet

And i was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don't go, and i said

Romeo take me somewhere where we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and i'll be the princess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me there trying to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh Oh

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you was fading

When i met you on the outskirts of town, and i said

Romeo save me i've been feelling so alone

I keep waiting for you but you never come

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think

He kelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me juliet

You'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all i really know

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh Oh, Oh Oh

'Cause we were both young when i first saw you...

p/s::: yea2 i know this song already old odd... but becoz of someone i love this song.. hahaha
*wondering*

Pathetic Weekend

2009-10-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

THINKing about..
My LIFE

MOODness..
Bored + E.M.O

Last weekend ri tu aku menghabiskan duet g ngok movie untuk melepaskan geram. tapi xsangka a lak 2 2 movie yg aku ngok suma wat aku emo smpai xtentu arah da. Sangat touching, tahap leleh punya a. aduyai.. jatuh reputasi ku sebagai seorang yang hati kering. Now aku da jadi seorang yang tersangat E.M.O.
hihi, xtau a lau aku je yg ikotkan sgt perasaan ni. tapi seyes a, memg sedey pon cite yg aku ngok tu.

Tsunami [Korean's film] and Papadom [Malay's film]
whoa Korea vs Malaysia tu..

but 2 2 best and tahap 5 star a... ♥♥♥♥♥

TSUNAMI [Haeundae]

trailer

-credit to MrZaagii (http://www.youtube.com/)-

TSUNAMI::: em... start2 cite ni cam bodo je.. a bit bosan. but ble start comflict tros how gile. sangat seram coz bayangkan kite yg ade dalam cite tu. tengah menjalankan hidup cam biasa, tetiba denga amaran Tsunami nk melanda negara kite dalam masa kurang dari 10 minit ag. Nak kena selamatkan diri ag, nak cari tempat berlindung ag, nak pikir family kite ag. tapi aku rasa lau dalam keadaan cemas tu suma tak ingat da, suma sibuk selamatkan diri masing2 je. but dalam masa kurang dari 10 minit, nk selamat kan diri aku asa tak selamat da. tu yang dorg gambar kan time dalam filem tu. sangat seram. ombak yang sangat tinggi tetiba serang negara kite. whoa. xtau a nk cakap pe.

and 1 more things, before cite Tsunami tu start ade iklan cite yg coming soon akan masuk panggung. ade lak iklan cite "2012" agak same ngan cite Tsunami ni. but aku asa ag terok kot. HUH.. saya bertekad nk g gak ngok cite tu Novenber t.. hihi.. sape nk teman, angkat tangan.

PAPADOM

(sorry xda poster, ku da cari tapi xjumpa)

Papadom:::: cite ni lawak sebenarnye, but bila part dorang paparkan kisah seorang bape (Saadom;Afdlin Shauki) sangat take care about his daugther sampai sanggup keje sebagai tukang kebun UiTM sebab nk dekat ngan anak die, sangat menyentuh perasaan aku. dalam cite tu ade die sebut. sebagai seorang ayah biasa nye, susah nak cakap yang die sayang anak die, but dengan perbuatan die maybe le tunjuk yang die act sangat sayang anak die. tang2 tu jugak air mate ni berjurai2 jatuh. Leleh gile. Tetiba tingat kat daddy aku.. huhu. daddy, i'm sorry if slama ni sy cakap saya xrasa disayangi oleh daddy. huhu T_____T

kesimpulannye.. 2 2 cite ni sedeh and leleh *bg aku la, korang nilai a sendiri*

p/s:: act ku da lama x nanges, bila dapat nanges tros xle stop..

huhuhu

Vivarian

2009-10-16T20:35:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
my JOURNEY tomorrow

MOODness..
happy+excited

Esok saya mau enjoy..
cam tau2 je ku nga KEBOSANAN skarang ni..
huhu..
Mau jalan2 sama 'kawan2' ku..
tapi cam takot lak..
hihi.. pape je la..
janji ku le enjoy sok.. hihihi

GENG VIVARIAN (name tu cik seky yg bg, sy tolong guna je, hihi)

GENG, bila ag mau ronda2 kota raya??

ku da gian da ni..

hihi ^____^

Blank

2009-10-16T13:58:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
my ~~weight~~ become more and more now.. huaaa T__T

MOODness..
Boring yg teramat-amat sgt @_@

HWWWAAAAAHHH~~!
sgt penat.. bukan sebab wat keje ke pe..
sgt penat bila di kurung di dalam rumah..
bezanye just aku still di bagi makan dan minum..
but langsung xwat keje pape..
~~BOSAN..!! BOSAN...!~~
Nak kuar..
nak g ngok movie.... xde kawan
nak g shoping.... xda kawan, plus, xda duet yg mencukupi
nak melancong (melancong ke melencong??).... xda sape nak bw, plus, xda duet yg mencukupi gak
MUM..... DADDY..... tolong la anak mu ini...
almost dying becoz she feels so bored...

HHWWWWAAAAA~~~~~ T_____T

p/s:: act ku xda motif nk tulis pe.. haha.. tapi rindu a lak da lama xbukak blog ni..
hihi

FOOL!!

2009-10-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
my FOOLness

MOODness..
HOME!!!

i'm stupid. Am i??? -_# !!
YES, I AM!!!
I'm so stupid by asking that stupid question to THEM!!!
UUURRRGGGHHHHH~!!!
why i'm so stupid.. WHY?WHY?
Why i'm asking even i already know the answer is..
Why this damn mouth said that words?? stupid a**h***!!!!
How i want to face them after this??
DAMN!!!!!

Happy beday!!!

2009-10-06T01:13:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
my FRIEND!!!

MOODness..
50-50

Ari ni 6 OCT 2009

budak ni punya beday

happy ~~20th~~ beday..

semoga sihat selalu..

jangan hangin2 selalu.. t berangin sampai tue.. padan muka..

senyum2 hari2.. jangan masam2 t jadi jeruk ko gak yang susa..

Mad at YOU!!!

2009-10-06T00:39:00.001+08:00

THINKing about..
my FOOL!!

MOODness..
like want SMACK someone.. especially ~~"H, S, D"~~!!!

geram yg teramat2 kat mereka.. sbb ape? sebab mereka mencabar kesabaran aku.. yela2.. aku ngaku yang aku ni xreti nak tunjuk kat public yg aku tenga mara.. aku akan tetap ok even depan orang yang aku mara sekali pon.. but jangan la cabar kesabaran wey.. aku manusia gak.. ade had kesabaran gak.. aku bukan ~~malaikat~~ yang le tunduk je.. agak2 a kan lau nak mengata ke nak sindir ke.. aku denga kot ape yang korang cakap selama ni.. bukan nya aku xdenga.. korang dok sedap2 ngutuk orang sana, orang sini.. cakap macam2, suma korang xpuas ati.. ingat korang tu perfect sangat? baik sangat? xda makna nye.. kadang2 ape yang korang cakap pasal orang laen tu.. act same je ngan korang tu.. korang pon hipokrit gak.. korang tu mengumpat, mengutuk gak.. korang tu merendah2kn orang laen gak.. xya la cakap korang tu baik sangat, perfect sangat.. act same je..ag terok pon ade gak..

da puas korang kutuk orang laen, now korang attack aku lak ey.. manyak ~~"cantek"~~.. kalau ~~cantek~~ la.. harap rupe ade but perangai xsemengah xyah la berangan orang laen akan suke korang sume.. xya la nak sindir2 aku.. aku denga la ape yang korang cakap.. masalah nye.. korang cakap seolah2 aku xbuat keje.. padahal aku buat kot.. xkan la setiap kali aku buat keje nk kena inform korang.. kang t xpasal2 cakap aku nak menunjuk lak.. da fitnah ag.. ape la masalah pompuan2 zaman skarang ni.. perasan bagus lebih.. xkemana nye.. caya la cakap aku..

lantak korang la.. xlama ag aku nak blah da.. korang hidup la ngan gaya korang skarang.. semoga ~~"berbahagia".~~..

p/s:: depend la kt korang nak nilai aku ni orang cane..

this is just a fantasy life that we can't run from them

being a joker [UPDATED]

2009-10-05T15:12:00.000+08:00

THINKing about..
my sleep.. -_- zzz

MOODness..
Damn Sleepy !!

baru je abis exam beberape jam yg lepas. paper yang kureng memberansangkan.. as usual. xheran da.
yang penting now ku nk complete kn keje ku kt blog ni.. YEAH!! MAJU BLOGGING UNTUK NEGARA!! pesanan dr pihak penaja.. haha.. mental sudah..

xda a act ku nk continue cite last entry.. kn xabis ag.. so ku nak smbung a ni..
aku kenal 'H' (bukan name sebenar) xla lama sgt act, tp ade la dlm 2 nak masuk 3 taun gak..
sepanjang aku kenal die, kitorang xda kwn rapat sgt.. but after beberape conflict dan masalah yg kitorg lalui bersame ade la beberape bulan kitorang kawan and le a dikatekn rapat.. siap cite personal lagi.. but it's not means that i reveale my secret to her.. just about my own self..

but sejak2 ni aku ngok die da laen je ngan aku.. aku pon xtau pe sebab nye.. aku lak cam biasa a.. memg style aku, aku xamik pot pon hal orang laen.. nak kawan, aku ok.. xmo kawan, g la jauh2.. i don't care.. aku le hidup sendiri.. tapi ngek2 aku ni yg xamik tau hal orang pon, aku ade gak perasaan.. cam kadang2 xsanggup ngok die kena perbodohkn orang laen.. orang laen dok gelakkn die, die bole ok je lagi ngan orang2 tu.. memg a tu die punya pasal, but apsal la ngan die kn? xkan sedar2 ag?
ble plak ske orang laen men gelak2kn die... xpaham aku.. adakah itu semua dilakukan semata2 untuk mendapatkkan perhatian and mendapat kawan laen??

aku bukan jeles ke ape ke.. xda masa a nk jeles.. but lau ye pon nak kawan and desperate nk attention jangan a sampai cmtu skali.. aku tau la lau ko ngan aku, ko xdapat suma tu, but atleast ku xda a nk malukan ko depan public.. aku tau gak nk jaga maruah orang laen..

tapi ape nk buat kn lau ko sendiri pon nk diri ko dipersendakan.. aku xsuro and aku xlarang.. itu hidup ko.. but pasni lau ko nak baik ngan aku.. sorry to say ok.. aku xkn la baik ag ngan cam dulu.. pegi la ko ngan hidup ko.. semoga berbahgia je ku doa kn.. ^_~

p/s:: uish xbaik aku kan? LOL..

being a joker

2009-10-04T20:33:00.001+08:00

THINKing about..
my exam tomorrow.. ofcoz

MOODness..
a bit tired n feel like sleeping.. LOL

haha.. saya adalah org yg sgt 'cool'.. want to know why? becoz i'm the person that can do blogging in the night before my final exam. haha. nothing wrong right? i'm just want to get off my tension at HERE and HERE.
in this entry i just want to share something about my 'friend' (i think, as long as she still need me as her friend. for me, i don't mind). act da lama ku nk reveal cite ni. but cam takot plak ade yg terasa. but now ku sure yg xsape yg terasa (agaknye la)
before that, i want to ask something, ade ke org sekarang masih merelakan diri sendiri untuk diperbodohkan org laen semata2 just nk dpt ramai kawan? nta la.. lau aku, xsanggup a. memalukan diri sendiri je.. hihi
lau nk tau cite panjang.. next entry saya post ek.
now nk stop. asa cam nk study la plak..

to be continue..♥

p/s:: aduyai.. tetiba lak mama call.. suro study.. haha KANTOI~!!

when it comes

2009-09-26T17:55:00.001+08:00

THINKing about..

my BELOVED EXAMINATION, will be held starting from 30Sept - 9Oct '09

MOODness..

Tired, Bored, Scared

Today is 7th day kite sambut hari raya aidilfitri..

semangat raya da kureng skit.. act dr raya 1st mood aku da kureng.. hihi

raya taun ni kureng meriah skit.. coz suma sibling ku xda beraya ngan ku n mama n ayah.. suma balik KG masing2.. tinggal aku n mama n ayah beraya kt umah ni. huhu syahdu a plak.. hahaha

abih tu nak wat cane.. da kami ni xda KG.. family mama dok kt cni gak.. bersebelahan je ngan umah aku.. family ayah kt KL.. bt now tinggal aunty2 n uncle2 ku je yg tinggal.. grandma n grandpa da xda.. ~Al-fatihah~..

bt time jenjalan raya agak best a.. coz ada aunty ku yg sangat happening ikot skali ku n parents g raya.. ade gak teman aku.. xda la ku sorg2.. huhu..

ni aku ade upload picca.. act byk picca ku snap bt cam xbest je picca nye.. so ni je la yg ok skit.. lalala

best nye lau ni KG aku kn.. huhu..

bt ni KG org laen.. bole la..

my BELOVED aunty

my CUTEST kazen

this is what i'm doing rite now.. looking at my ton notes..

exam will come to me soon.. hukhuk T_T

Raya

2009-09-26T13:55:00.003+08:00

My Life Today is....
TiredNESS

whoa... sangat penat setelah seminggu beraya sakan.. konon2 ri tu xmo raya.. nak exam la ape la.. last2 beraya sampai xhingat dunia da.. aduyai.. sampai la ni xstudy pape pon ag..
next sudah mau exam.. apa cita ni, zaryn oiii... adussss...

sepanjang raya ni.. aku banyak perhatikan ramai kazen2 ku suma da "berteman". bahagia sungguh mereka kan.. aku je stil keseorangan.. huhu.. tapi atlest aku still ade family.. xda a ku cam orang2 yang kurang bernaseb baik kt luar nun. dorang just dapat beraya ngan kawan2, xdapat pon beraya ngan family.. atlest aku patot gak bersyukur ngan ape yg aku ada.. kan?kan?

bila cite pasal duet raya.. tidak la saya dapat.. maklum a.. sudah besaq da.. xlayak pon dapat duet raya.. hancur harapan aku nak shoping guna duet raya.. huhu

ok la.. mau caw dulu.. mau study.. daaaa...

p/s:: note2 ku sekalian.. wait for me.. i'm coming... lalalala

Time To Back

2009-09-15T12:44:00.002+08:00

My Life Today is....
Excitetion Hearts ♥_♥_♥_♥_♥

saya pulang ke kG ari ni..
pas class petang ni saya berangkat pulang ke kG.. haha
sanat bahagia...
but ade gak yang cedey nye.. sampai ari saya xg ag shoping raya...
ape benda pon saya xbli ag.. so nampak nye lau sampai ke raya saya xbli pape..
jangan la salahkn saya lau saya xmau g raya..
hihi..

p/s:: takot... ag 2 minggu mau final exam.. *x*

090909

2009-09-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

My Life Today is....
NotHinG

sedey... sedey... sebab 2 minggu saya xle balik kG. huhu. sebab ade class ari SABTU..
kenapa... kenapa...???
disebabkan class tu terpaksa la saya stay kt shah alam ni.. huhu T_T
perlu ke buat class ari sabtu?? xle ke ganti ari laen??saje je xkasi saya balik umah.. huhu

sekarang saya sangat addicted pada nasi kerabu daging.. huhu.. sangat sedap. yummy.. !yummy..! hihi

tadi ade buka FaceBook, suma mention pasal tarikh ari ni.. 090909 (cam title entry ku je.. haha)
suma ade cite tersendiri.. but saya xda cite yg special pon.. just a bored day.. as usual.
lalala..

p/s: pe yg special nye 090909??? cam menakutkan ade la.. hahaha ^_^ v

Happy bored day + TAG

2009-08-28T11:38:00.003+08:00

My Life Today is....
happy.. sbb le balik KG ag.. haha

ari ni tetiba ade tag..so, disbb kan aku bosan skit pg2 ni.. aku pon jawab la.. THANKS NAS..
aku jawab la ni..

1) binatang ape.. semua organ die kat dalam mata.. kaki die, kepala die, badan die, semua kat dalam mata..
>>1) binatang yang ngok diri die dlm cermin

(2) kucing pe de 9 kaki?
>>(2) kucing kembo siam yang cacat terlebih 1 kaki.. haha..

(3) kambing bin ape?
>>(3) kambing bin kepada bapak die la..

(4) cmne nk bezakan ikan jantan n ikan betina?
>>(4) ikan yang byk parut tu la jantan.. sbb selalu gadoh2.. haha

(5) byk2 mi, mi ape yg bole mkn dgn ais?
>>(5) milo ais...

(6) telur itik, telur ayamtelur mana yang lagi halal?
>>6) setau aku 2 2 halal.. nta a.. ayam kot

(7) atr kapal terbang ngn kuih lepat liat, mne yg lebih tggi?
>>(7) kuih lepat LIAT .. sbb kalau tarik, mesti le sampai tahap lebih tinggi dr kapal terbang kan.. ahaks..

(8) masa die hidup kite menyanyi, mase die mati kite tepuk tgn..pe die?
>>(8) microfon kot..

(9) Dalam byk2 kotak, kotak ape xble nk ditutup?
>>(9) kotak suara

(10) burung berkicau.,ayam berkokok.,harimau __________??
>>(10) harimau mengaum... xpon menguap.. haha

(11) yang membuat x memerlukannya,yang membeli x memakainya,yang memakai x memesannya..
>>(11) batu nisan kot...

p/s:: ish xreti aku nak jawab... merepek meraban.. haha.. ok x nas???

Fasting time

2009-08-24T00:09:00.002+08:00

My Life Today is....
busy...bbbuuussyyyy!!!!

ari ni 2nd day kite as a muslim menjalani ibadah berpuasa...
bahagia2... sebab 1st and 2nd day puasa saya bersama family.. sangat bersyukor a gak sbb ade orang laen terpaksa berjauhan ngan family time bulan yang penuh ngan feeling ni.. hihi

ari ni my grandma masak untuk aku.. nasi lemak special.. haha.. sangat rindu sama nasi lemak nanny.. thanks nanny... sayang nanny lebih.. hehe.. **sangat bahagia...

hurrmm... esok sudah kena balik shah alam.. huaa.. T_T ... xmo balik...
tapi apakan daya terpaksa la balik... untuk meneruskan pengajian.. huhu...

p/s:: xpe2.. next week aku balik ag.. i miss my katil... huhu~~

Again

2009-08-18T17:59:00.000+08:00

My Life Today is....
Bored.. as usual..

ari ni pagi2 ag aku da kena siap2 untuk pergi ke class..
adus.. sangat mengantok... ~_~!!
today 1 more time i was break my record with went to campus by my own.. haha.. *bangga2
em.. nothing i want to say now..
so, c u soon..!!!

p/s:: hahaha..~

Basic

2009-08-17T23:11:00.002+08:00

My Life Today is....
em.. complicated..

back to basic.. tu yang aku nak cakap..
cite ni related ngan post yg b4 this...
time aku jalan sorang2 nak balik petang tadi.. tetiba plak terpikir benda ni.. dan aku sangat la tersedar pasal benda ni suma..
actually dengan ape yang happen kat aku lately, tetiba menyedarkan aku pasal 1 benda yang aku memang da lama lupakan... "FAMILY".. bukan nye aku da lupakan sape family aku, just aku lupa kepentingan family dalam hidup.. aku sangat menyesal tak sedar benda ni awal...

camni kisah nye.. sejak dulu aku pernah terasa macam family aku tak pernah care pasal aku, tak pernah nak sayang aku. aku rasa cam family aku tak perlukan aku dan aku tak perlukan dorang... astagfirullahhalazim... ape aku pikir ni??!! seriously aku pernah pikir camtu.. lagi2 sejak aku start futher study kat s.alam ni.. aku kalau boleh nak elak balik kG.. sebab xnak jumpa family coz aku rasa cam rimas bila ngan family.. aku lebih selesa dok kat s.alam ni tanpa dorang, dok ngan kawan2 yang aku rasa sangat best time tu.. aku sampai cakap.. "xsuke a balik umah.. BOSAN".. zalim nye la aku kan cakap benda tu.. aku pon macam xpercaya yang aku pernah cakap camtu..

but lately, pas ape yang berlaku.. aku tros sedar yang aku selama ni silap.. sekarang aku sedar.. family adalah segala2nye.. dari family kite bermula and dari family gak kite berakhir.. xle nak dipisahkan..

yup. memg xdinafikan hidup ngan kawan2 memg best, enjoy dan tak terkongkong.. tak macam dok ngan family.. tu salah, ni salah, nak buat tu xle, ni xle.. tapi bila pikir balik.. dengan kawan kite banyak bersama bila happy dan senang.. bila susah berapa kali kita bersama kawan??? mungkin ada antaranye yang susah senang bersama.. but suma tu tak sama bila kite bersama ngan family.. bila bersama ngan family memg pahit pada mula.. but suma tu ade hikmah..
mama selalu cakap.. "jangan buat tu, jangan buat ni.. xbaik.."
ayah plak cakap.. "kenapa xbuat itu, napa xbuat ni??"
suma xbole, suma kena ikot cakap dorg... bosan..!! bosan..!!
but pernah x kite pikir kesan nye...
kalau korang yang lain aku xtau a..
but kalau aku, baru sekarang aku terpikir hikmah disebaliknye... kalau mama and ayah xlarang and kongkong aku dulu.. aku xtakkan boleh berfikir macam sekarang.. aku takkan bertahan study sampai sekarang... tu suma berkat aku telan suma kepahitan hidup ngan family dulu..
sekarang.. aku lebih selesa and happy bila ngan family.. memg la dalam family kadang2 ade benda yang xpuas ati and menyakitkan ati.. but benda tu da jadi biasa.. xheran da..
lau dulu aku xpernah terpikir nak balik uma.. xpernah ade perasaan gembira bila nak balik umah.. but now.. aku tertunggu2 bla la nak balik umah...

terasa sangat perbezaan nye...

ayah, mama, along and a.my&a.sham.. saya sayang korang..

Life Record

2009-08-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

My Life Today is....
BrightEr.. becoz i break MY RECORD today..

mesti korang pelik kan?? apsal la ngan aku ni.. mental ke ape.. hihi..

actually ari ni saya telah memecahkan record saya selama ini.. sebab hari ni saya berjaya mengharungi hari saya dengan berdikari sendiri.. suma benda saya buat sendiri.. dari pagi aku g class sorang2, pergi shoping sorang2, makan McD sorang2, balik umah sorang2..

mesti korang cakap kan... "tu pon kira pecah record ke?? over tol budak ni!!" dengan perasaan yang sangat menyampah.. btol x?? haha

xda la... actually kepada mereka yang kenal aku mesti tau kan, aku xle hidup sorang2 selama ni.. aku takot kalau aku ditinggalkan sorang2.. but ari ni aku telah bukti kan aku boleh hidop sorang.. aku sebenarnya tak perlu terlalu mengharap pada orang laen untuk selalu bersama aku, sebab orang ni bukan suma ikhlas bila berkata2.. depan memg la kate "ala, xkisah la.." but kat blakang "huh!! menyampah aku.." mengata sekuat hati.. tapi xsuma orang camtu.. ade gak yang baik and memg ikhlas kalau kate nak tolong ataupon buat ape2 hal pon.. untuk mereka yang sangat ikhlas dalam melakukan ape saje tu.. tahniah di ucapkan.. yang mane tidak tu... Lu, pikir la sendiri, ek?! haha
yang aku pelik, kenapa nak hipokrit??? xpenat ke?? depan cakap lain, blakang cakap lain.. memg la xdinafikan sometimes kite terpaksa buat camtu untuk menjaga hati orang laen.. bak kate orang dulu2 "tipu sunat je".. tapi kalau da ari2 and leh dikate kan sepanjang masa buat camtu, bukan tipu sunat da... tu da dikira hipokrit.. xbaik...
yang tu satu kes.. kes ag 1 plak.. kisah orang yang suka bermuka2.. bila senang ngan orang laen, bla susah and terdesak ngan orang lain.. nta a.. ape la nak jadi ngan manusia zaman sekarang.. kenapa kena buat camtu?? tak ke benda tu mempergunakan orang jugak?? tak baik tau... em.. yang selalu aku perhatikan.. orang2 yang jadi mangsa manusia bermuka2 ni mesti orang yang lurus kan.. dorg2 ni akan ikot je ape yang disuro oleh manusia yang 'si mangsa' ni angkap kawan..
kesian2.. hish..

ish.. da a... penat da aku merepek meraban.. nta ape yang aku taip..
aku po sebenarnya xpaham.. haha..

p/s:: k la.. saya nak merehatkan minda..tata

Heaven

2009-08-16T22:50:00.006+08:00

My Life Today is....

so..soo..sooo.. HAPPY!!!

saya sangat la happy hari ni..

sbb saya join sukan belia kat kG saya..

haha..

hari ni suma jawatan saya pegang... antara nye..

> komuniti

> tukang sorak

> urusetia

> tukang tulis markah

> peserta

> tukang menyibuk

> tukang memenuhkan khemah

> peserta aerobik dan poco2

> mcm2 ag a...

ceh.. poyo je suma benda aku buat..

abis tu... da memg suma benda aku bolot.. tapi xda pon penghargaan.. huhu **sadis tol

tp xpe a.. asalkan saya dapat happy kan diri saya yang memg tengah mengong ni..

tarian poco2.. saya xreti nak buat.. haha

lau teror cuba cari dimana saya???

with my lovely lagi happening aunty

Unknown

2009-08-14T12:10:00.003+08:00

My Life Today is....
N.O.T.H.I.N.G

edited by::zaeryn

saya suda kurang keje.. tu yang gatal edit2 picca ni.. hihi.

tetiba plak rasa mengantuk.. petang ini ada class PHARMACOLOGY..

apsal la class ni lambat sangat..

mengantok sudah..~~

p/s:: don't ask me why i'm post this kind of poster

Messy

2009-08-14T09:46:00.003+08:00

My Life Today is....
So messy with all feeling in my soul..

Nta a, macam2 ade ari ni.

1st, saya ditinggalkan sekali lagi keseorangan..cedey ade, happy pon ade..hihi..

2nd, happy skit la coz ade KAWAN saya ajak saya gi window shopping.. *best tu mmmg best tapi ape kn daya duet xcukup la, Sue..aduyai..

3rd, happy la jugak kot, saya pon balik ke kampung halaman yang xberapa nak jauh tu... haha

4th, rimas la gak effect dari malam tadi, coz ade someone ni sibuk nak paksa aku buat somethig yang aku xsuka. tapi aku pon bodo gi layan die ag kenapa.. ish2

5th, takot coz ari ni 1st class PHARMACOLOGY ngan Miss Dilla.. takot la gak dari Mr Nizam dulu.. huhuhu

6th, cedey2.. sbb KAWAN saya xdapat amik saya balik.. huhu.. baru nak ajak rewang.. huhu*BEB, u owe me k.. huh!!

p/s:: tapi yang lebih is happy dapat jumpa mama!! i'm home

So Boring

2009-08-13T14:04:00.002+08:00

My Life Today is....
A "Happy" Bored Day 3v3r sudah bertukar jadi A "Laziest" Bored Day 3v3r

kenapa la ari ni plak tetiba ade class..

xle ke cancel seperti biasa..

saya sangat la malas nak pergi..

tapi ape kan daya..

terpaksa la gak pergi..

huhu

Yummy2!!

2009-08-13T11:58:00.003+08:00

My Life Today is....

A Happy Bored day 3v3r

saya order laksam dan sirap cincau

sedap la gak.. coz saya memg tengah starving.. ahaks

jika anda2 ingin makan disini, adalah dinasihatkan menyediakan

wang yang secukupnye.. kalau yang 'ado' je duet tu

tengok dari luar je da la..

saya takot nnt anda di sahkan mengidap

jantung terkejut.. haha *gurauan semata2

warning!! hanya dibenarkan focus pada tmpat yg x di blurkan je okay!!

abaikan makhluk di dibelakang tu.. haha

saya menjumpai A.B.C Fruity

tu kt SUNWAY PIRAMID.. sedap giler!!

ape hal pelik no air ni?? ha.. ni la sirap bandung..

ade sesiapa yg tau kat mana bole dijumpai.. angkat tangan!! hihi

saya menyediakan segala mcm mknan ni coz saya memg tengah lapo tahap gaban sekarang.. xmakan lagi ni..

aish.. bla la nak makan ni.. mummy!!!!

please tell me why

2009-08-12T14:52:00.004+08:00

My Life Today is....
SO SAD AND LONELY

ku pon xtau knapa. yg aku tau aku memg terasa sgt kekosongan dan aku ingin sgt tau ape makna kawan sebenarnye.. aku pon confius ngan perkataan tu.. sbb aku xpernah dapat makna yang sebenarnye dr dulu smpai la skarang ni.. sbb ape yang orang laen cakap kat aku laen ngan ape yang aku dapat..

aku slalu gak tertanya2.. ape maksud disebalik perkataan kawan..? penting ke tak sebenarnya bla ade kawan..? kenapa aku tak pernah rasa macam aku ade kawan..? kenapa kawan selalu takde ngan aku bila aku perlu kan dorang..? kenapa kawan aku taknak kawan ngan aku..? kenapa kawan aku selalu tak endah kan aku..? aku ni layak ke ade kawan..?

ntah la.. kadang2 aku rasa aku sgt bodoh sbb selalu sangat mintak simpati dari orang untuk jadi kawan aku.. masalahnye.. ikhlas ke dorang jadi kawan aku? ke dorang terpaksa sbb kesian kan aku je.. kalau kawan atas dasar kesian itu dinamakan kawan ke? ape makna true friendship sebenarnye???

p/s: thanks to all people that always beside me.. coz make me feel like i'm not alone in this world..

Cancelations

2009-07-06T14:37:00.003+08:00

AGAIN!!!!!

bosan!! bosan!!

apsal la class ni asyik2 cancel...??!!

menyampah aku..

aku terpaksa menunggu 'mereka2' tu keseorang.. melangut cam org bodo..

pening2...

apsal la asyik cancel je...

t lau xcukup hour da kena replace la ap la...

menyusahkan tol la...

penat sungguh da...

huh!!

TAG

2009-07-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

Thanks Marie..

1. Last beverage: pink guava jus
2. Last phone call: my friend
3. Last text message: my beloved mama ♥
4. Last song you listened to: SNSD-GEE ♪
5. Last time you cried: Let me think 1st.. hahaha.. long2 time ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: NO
7. Been cheated on: OfCoz
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: em... Am i?? NOOO
9. Lost someone special: Last Years
10. Been depressed: of course
11. Been drunk and threw up: Not Once

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Blue
13. Black
14. purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend: yeah =D
16. Fallen out of love: not really (:
17. Laughed until you cried: yups xD
18. Met someone who changed you: nobody could
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes, i think i know now ^^
20. Found out someone was talking about you: no
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know: all =)
23. How many kids do you want?: don't care now abt kids =3
24. Do you have any pets: Not at all
25. Do you want to change your name: no.. i proud to be it..
26. What did you do for your last birthday: NOTHING
27. What time did you wake up today: 8:45 am
28. What were you doing at midnight: Talking NONsense.. Imagination FUNCtioning.lala
29. Name something you cant wait for: Em..let me think a while
30. Last time you saw your Mother: a few days ago

p/s:: sesape yg nk tag ni amik a ek... hihi

Multitasker

2009-07-04T11:31:00.002+08:00

That's what my FRIEND said to me..
sebabnye... die kate aku le buat byk benda dlm 1 1 masa.. aku le chatting, wat assignment, basuh baju, tengok YouTube, tengok TV dlm masa yang same.. and 1 more thing, die kate aku mental... haha.. tu memg da semestinya.. lalalala..

tapi yg aku pikirkan sekarang.. nape aku xle nk study cmtu.. study je byk2 dlm 1 masa.. aduyai... sgt mengecewakan.. huhu.. what to do.. da memg cmtu... bkn type aku k stuy memanjang.. dok ngadap buku.. coz aku i jenis yg xske membaca... aku ske melihat, mendengar.. bab membaca and guna otak, ku xberapa berminat.. MENTALY DISTURBANCES skit..
hahaha...

Lost

2009-07-03T19:10:00.003+08:00

Kenapa kite slalu rasa diri kite ditinggalkan?? adakah kite yang slalu meninggalkan orang laen??
-whatever~~
sebabnye memg sifat semulajadi manusia yang memg x pernah nak menghargai ape yg die ade.. bla benda tu da xda bru la nak kecoh, hilang la, ape la. bla da hilang baru nak menyesal pon da xguna.
so sila la kamo2 semua menghargai ape yg ade dengan kamo. xkira la barang, orang, haiwan, tumbuhan, duet or etc. jangan abaikan.

p/s:: ape la yg aku merepek ni... aku pon xpaham.. hahaha

Taking Care

2009-07-03T13:39:00.005+08:00

As a friend.. kena ke kite amik berat pasal each other? or kite just ignore je what kwn kite tu nak buat. kawan kite tu suka ke tak if kite tersangat amik berat pasal die? t x pasal2 die ckp kite ni bz body lak. kan da susah. tapi lau kite x amik berat cakap la plak yg kite ni x amik beart la ape la. xamik tau langsung pasal die. em nta a. dunia2.. mcm2. xpaham aku.

ape sebenarnya peranan K.A.W.A.N?? just untuk masa senang? bla masa susah, mana pergi nye kawan2 ni? tapi ada gak kawan yang masih bersama kite walau susah dan senang. tapi tersagat la susah nk jumpa kan? lau ade pon memg susah nk jaga. keljap gado, kejap baik.

em nta a... just le it be.. yang penting kite tau ape yg kite buat...

p/s::: thanks to people that want to be my friend... thanks a lot... i really appreciate u guys..

DAMN

2009-07-02T12:19:00.003+08:00

BENCI! BENCI! BENCI!

Penat je aku datang class ri ni dengan kelam kabut ag. sekali dtg2 class, tros dorg ckp class CANCEL. B***ang!!!!!!

lau aku tau da lama aku menetap je kt uma...

huhu

penat je tau ...

addicted

2009-07-01T13:37:00.002+08:00

Sejak2 aku bz ngan fanfiction ni, aku da giler sgt da ngan internet ni.. apsal nta.. 1 ari xngadap laptop ni asa cam xlengkap a hidop.. haha..
anyway, ku update ni pon sebab ku ada 'hamba allah' ni nk sgt ku update blog ni.. so ku pon update je la...
but aku memg serius xda cita nk shared.. coz now nga long sem... tersgt2 la bz.. haha

daaaa.....

Unknown

2009-06-16T01:34:00.003+08:00

Bosan!! tu je yang aku le describe pe yang aku rasa sekarang. Aigoo, aku really don't know pe yang aku nak wat time cuti ni. xda benda nak buat. balik2 aku mengadap laptop ni. xda benda laen yang aku le buat ke?

p/s:: menanti 'durian runtuh' ni... bla a nak masuk acc ni???!!!

stupid???

2009-05-25T10:58:00.002+08:00

Whoa.. patut nye ri ni aku da otw pegi holiday kat TIOMAN da. but aku xg coz aku da pikir banyak kali yang aku ni da a nk exam. takkan nak g holiday plak. mampus aku kalau camtu. maunye aku xstudy nanti. aku ni tau je la. bukan le concerntrate sangat lau nak study. lagi2 kalau aku pegi, da a nanti penat. so aku pon buat a plan *xperlu a ku explain pe plan nye...* then dad ku pon lepas kan aku balik shah alam balik. xyah da g tioman. hahaha.
now macam2 perasaan ada. menyesal ada, happy ada, sedey ada, tension ada. macam2 a.
xpe a. aku pon da bosan da asyik2 g sana je. tiap2 taun plak tu g sana. so xheran pon kalau xg kali ni.
yang aku nak focus kat exam week aku. tu yang paling penting now.
lalalala

emptiness

2009-05-21T12:39:00.002+08:00

Pernah x rasa kekosongan dalam hidop? kenapa kite le rasa sepi even sekeliling kite ade orang? is it jiwa kite yang kosong sebenarnya? cane nak elakkan kekosongan tu?
Ada orag kate kite kena a dekat kan diri dengan tuhan. Jangan abaikan suruhannya. insyallah jiwa kite akan tenang dan rasa terisi.
Em, betol gak. kalau kite sibuk sgt ngan duniawi pon xelok gak. thats why kot sometimes kite ada gak rasa sunyi gile. kite gak kena bersyukur dengan ape yang kite ada. jangan lupa ape yang kite dapat sekarang ni belom tentu le dengan kite sampai bila2. dan bila2 masa je ALLAH le tarik balik ape yang pernah kite dapat if kite leka dengan nikmat nya....

imagination

2009-05-18T15:38:00.003+08:00

Berapa tinggi dan berapa luas imaginasi korang? Elok ke kalau kite ada daya imaginasi yang tinggi? susah ke kalau kite xada daya imaginasi yang rendah? Ape guna sebenarnya daya imaginasi ni? NO KOMENto.. hihi. yang aku tau perlu gak sebernanya daya imaginasi ni. tapi aku rasa jangan la terlalu tinggi atau terlalu rendah. daya imaginasi yang terlalu rendah akan meninggikan risiko untuk orang cakap kite ni 'innocent' atau bahasa kaso nye 'bengap'. hahaha. kalau daya imaginasi yang terlalu tinggi ni ag bahaya kalau nak tau. benda yang kecik and positive bila dengan adanya daya imaginasi yang melampau2 tinggi ni lama2 le gak benda tu jadi benda besar and le jadi negative. bahaya tu. so, daya imaginasi sebaik nye jangan disalah guna kan ke arah benda yang merepek2. xelok tu..

mood::bosan teramat sangat

teacher's day

2009-05-16T15:22:00.004+08:00

p/s:: happy teacher's day to all teacher's in whole world

past time

2009-05-16T14:43:00.003+08:00

Masa lepas. adakah ape yang berlaku sekarang ada hubung kait dengan masa lampau kite? perlu ke kite ingat lagi masa lampau kite? penting sangat ke masa lampau dalam kehidupan kite?
Em, nta a. Bagi aku, kalau kite ingat balik masa lampau kite yang pahit, sedikit sebanyak akan menimbulkan dendam atau pon akan mengecewakan ag hidop kite. kalau ingat balik masa lampau yang manis, akan membuat kan diri kite sentiasa berada diawang-awangan macam hidop dalam khayalan, kite hidop dengan kejayaan lampau sedangkan sekarang dalam hidop realiti kite xwat pape pon tok ulangi kejayaan tu. kite masih ingat kita masih dalam dunia kejayaan, padahal kite da melepasi da dunia tu. dan sekarang sepatot nye kite mula dengan hidop baru untuk lebih berjaya. tapi kite lupa pasal tu disebabkan kite masih hidop dalam hidop kite yang lama. kan bahaya gak camtu.
So, masa lampau actually tak la memainkan peranan yang sangat penting dalam hidop kite sekarang. kite kena hidop tros kehadapan. yang lepas bia la lepas jangan ingat sangat. tapi aku xla cakap kite kena lupakan hidop lepas kite 100%. just jadi kannya sebahagian dari sejarah. jangan di ulangi dan jangan kite hidop dalam dunia lepas ag.

rumor

2009-05-15T23:51:00.006+08:00

Aku dapat tau 1 rumor ni. aku nampak couple ring kat jari 'die'. 'die' on date ke? dengan girl laen? how about me? please say that is just a R U M O R only... i can't stand with this all things. i really wanna cry now. please give back him to me... pleaseee~

someone's problem

2009-05-15T15:52:00.003+08:00

Aku ni kejam ke? hanya disebabkan aku x nak amik tau pasal problem 'orang laen'. xpatot2. kenapa plak aku nak amik tau pasal problem 'orang laen', sedangkan 'orang len' pon xpenah nak amik tau pasal problem aku yang memg da lama bersarang dalam otak aku ni. sampai kan kadang2 xpenah nak setle. hurm, nta a. ape la masalah dunia ni kan. all about other people. tapi pernah ke 'orang laen' tu amik tau pasal kite. so, xyah la kite nak sibuk2 amik tau pasal hal 'orang laen' tu. biar la die setle sendiri. pandai buat pasal, pandai a setle sendiri.
Nta a. tapi bila pikir2 balik, memg a aku ni agak kejam kalau aku buatkan diri aku di tempat 'orang len' tu. kan die tengah ade problem, patot nye aku kena a gak join denga problem die, tolong die. ni x, aku wat bodo je. hahaha.. kalau nak tau tu a perangai selamba badak. hwahwahwa

people vs human

2009-05-14T22:51:00.004+08:00

Kenapa hubungan sesama manusia kat dunia ni sgt la rumit? kenapa kite kena jaga hati org, sedangkan kadang2 org xpena jaga hati kite langsung. adakah itu adil bagi diri kite sendiri? kenapa kite boleh biar kan diri kite diperlakukan sebegitu. dayus? pengecut? baik hati? macam2 persoalan timbul. bila akan terjawab? em, nta a. bagi diri aku sendiri, aku ade my own reason kenapa mood and perangai aku akan berubah mengikut keadaan dan dengan sapa aku bersama. mungkin orang laen pon camtu kot. pape pon, lu pikir a sendiri.. hahaha..
aku rasa sometimes kite kena gak jadi hypocrite. but maybe bukan hypocrite tapi benda tu just hukum alam kot. kite akan automatic berubah ikot suke ati kite je.hihi. nta a, aku bukan nya arif sgt pasal benda2 ni suma. pe yang ku pandai merapu meraban kat cini je. just meluahkan isi hati yang tak penah diluahkan pada org laen. hurm, tu a aku kan. xreti nak luahkan pe yang ku rasa. aku hidop ikot suke ati ku je. janji ku bahagia kan?! tapi aku ni selfish ke? nta a. kadang2 aku pon xsedar pe yang aku da cakap. mungkin da sakitkan ati orang ke pe ke. sampai aku pon da hilang sorang kawan yang kitorang penah kongsi susah senang hidop as a student almost 1 year. JL. xperlu a ku pronouns name die kat sini. bia la ku je yang tau.

end of time

2009-05-13T13:40:00.004+08:00

Abis da seksa ku. Baru abis exam last 2 days. Now kena concentrate plak kat final. napa la short sem ni sgt la pendek. pening2. Belom abis pening tok mid sem da kena focus kat final exam plak. Em, ikot je la.

B.O.S.A.N

Kenapa hidop ini kadang2 tersgt la membosankan???!!! Kenapa kite rasa bosan?? sbb kite perlukan someone or kite sndiri yang xpernah menghargai ape yg kite dah ade??? aku pon xtau a nk pikir camne.

mood::lonely rocking

come back

2009-05-05T14:09:00.003+08:00

lama sungguh aku x singgah kat sini kan. maklum a bz banyak. mengalahkan SRI PADUKA BAGINDA plak. abih nak wat cane, tu a hidup as a malaysian student. melambak assignment and keje yang ntah pape. tapi result gitu gak. oppsss... hihihi.
sepanjang aku menghilang banyak gile perubahan dalam hidop ku. mana nak handle problem kat campus lagi, problem rumah yang tak penah stop, hidop yang melarat ag. erm nta a, ku pon kadang2 xpaham ngan dunia ni. sometym best sangat, sometym gile strees pikir pasal hidop. tu la nama nye HIDUP kan??!! kalau senang je bosan a. bak kate olang dulu2 aa... hidop susa, mati pon susa loo.... hahaha.

this post is dedicate for my LOVELY FRIEND... SUHAIDAH SHAMSUDIN (sorry eh lau salah eja.. ^_^ v)
:: nah... yin da updated blog ni.. baca la puas2 eh... hihi..

jangan bilang tidak

2008-10-25T19:16:00.004+08:00

ku pernah punya cinta
namun kini ku sedang suka kamu
cinta ku dulu telah ku buang jauh
kini ku ingin kamu

ku pernah menyendiri
disini ruang akan terasa sepi
walaupun bibir penuh gelak tawa
namun hatiku sepi

jangan bilang tidak
bila kita belum mencuba
siapa yang tahu akan sama
hati mu dan juga hatiku
banyak yang bercinta
bertahun tahun putus juga
ku harapkan dengan dirimu
walau ku singkap pendekatan

:::lagu ni agak lama da. tapi baru sekarang aku perasan lirik die.
agak ade persamaan dengan aku. tapi bila nyanyi solo a. and untuk mereka2 yang masih single seperti aku.. hihi :P

top secret

2008-10-20T13:49:00.002+08:00

last week top secret aku sudah terbongkar. tapi tak la terbongkar kat semua orang. just kat my sis in law je. ntah la macamana boleh terbongkar semua nye. actually takda la secret sangat pun. it's about my last love. before this takda sorang family aku pon tau pasal benda gini. ni la 1st time. senang cerita aku cita je la semua ek..

ade satu petang ni, aku da teramat bosan, so, ku pon msg a sis ku. da tu dengan ayat2 poyo yang ku bagi kat sis ku tetiba ku terlepas cerita about my last love tu. fuh..! takut gak kalau sis ku tercakap kat bro aku. mau hangit ku nanti.. hihi.. but my sis da janji sumpah taat setia tak nak bagitau kat bro aku. amin.. harap2 jangan a sis bagitau. huhu. kalau dulu aku selalu share secret dengan my best friend je exp:miss seky, princess vina, n mereka2 yang berkenaan. bukan ku taknak share dengan family, tak biasa la. dari kecik ku selalu simpan je kat hati, then bla besa skit share ngan kawan. lagi pon family aku, even my parent pon tak pena nak ask problem ku. dorang buat don't know je. dorang tak tau bila aku sedey, bila aku happy, bila aku crazy. semua tu dorang tak pena amik tau. yang dorg tau aku ni sakit ke tak. janji aku sihat walafiat, kira ok a tu. tapi dorang tak pernah pikir pasal feeling aku. so, disebabkan aku da terbiasa pendam feeling dalam hati je, tu yang kadang2 now aku cam buat tak tau je lau ade family problem. aku akan buat tak tahu, and wat bodoh je. aku tak mau pikir semua problem yang tak melibatkan aku. sebab aku da bosan pikir pasal problem hidup. sedang kan hidup ku pon tak terurus, takkan aku nak pikir poblem orang lain. tapi kalau family problem tu melibat kan and memudaratkan aku jugak, terpaksa la aku pikir gak pasal tu. hahaha..
lepas cerita semua top secret aku tu kat my sis, rasa memang lega sangat. macam da takda problem dalam otak ni. dada pun terasa lapang je. kepala pon da tak serabut pikir pasal macam hal yang tak berkaitan. kalau tak before this, semua bersarang dalam kepala otak ni. huh. so, pasni aku akan cakap je all my problem kat my sis. aku tengok my sis can adjust the situation.. hahaha. so sis, please be with me when i need u..please..

final

2008-10-13T16:48:00.003+08:00

...exam again.. haih.. kejap je da masuk final exam.. sem depan da masuk sem 4.. cepatnye.. macam tak caya lak da nak abis 3 tahun.. ade lagi 1 short sem and 2 long sem.. pastu abis.. kena keje lak.. aduyai.. huhu..
now nga exam week.. tapi sempat a gak mengewdix kt blog ni...

RaYa!!

2008-10-01T20:11:00.008+08:00

best gile ri ni raya 1st. hihi. tapi yang sedihnye collection duit raya da tak macam dulu. still dapat tapi sikit je. hanya orang2 yang baik hati and bermurah hati je yang bagi kat aku. yang lain haram~~ T_T sedih ooww~~
aku agak suke skit taun ni sebab ape yang aku nak suma ku dapat. tapi pe benda nye tu secreto la~. haha. sorry i can't say it here!! just for ur info only.. hihi

tapi ade gak yang ku kecewa skit. aku tak dapat pon wish hari raya dari MR.I. aduh~ memang a J***** K****** sungguh. oppsss~ haha not my fault ^_-

SeLaMat HaRi RaYa

2008-09-30T20:20:00.002+08:00

Get Your Pics Here

p/s:: selamat ari raya kpd suma family, kwn2, n mereka2 yang still kenal Za3RyN.. mintak maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki. maaf zahir batin.

mirotic

2008-09-30T16:09:00.007+08:00

go0d news to aLL Cassiopeians.. our oppa already out with korean new album.. the 1st single is Mirotic.. i already watch the mv.. they're so sexy. they also out with a new fresh identity.. all in short and smart hair.. maybe some of u think that it's a bit weird but it is the changes that our oppas want to give to us as their top fans..

>> if u guys want to download the ful mv version go to ::: http://www.4shared.com/::: just search the title mirotic

The word MIROTIC is a combination of "MIRO" which is "lost" in Korean (미로), and the English word "TIC". Together they make "Mirotic," which is supposed to carry the feeling of someone who falls in love at first sight and is trapped in a labyrinth they can never get out of.

TVXQ has been preparing for this album since 2007, only finished recording it this June. The title track is also choreographed by Kenny Wormald, who has worked with Justin Timberlake.The dance and beat for this song will show fans a whole new side of TVXQ.

Their new album will be released on the 24th Sept, and will be officially announced through SBS's Inkigayo on the 28th Sept.

To bE aLone?!

2008-09-28T18:48:00.006+08:00

i never stop loving u..
i just stopped showing it...
i love u so much...

if loving u is wrong...
i don't want to be right again...

sPeCiaL FoR U

2008-09-22T14:10:00.004+08:00

0uR space are to0 far so just it i can do for u. i hope u realy happy with ur life now. May ALLAH bless u and ur life. but please remember this, what ever that happen u still the top in my heart. nothing can fall it down. u must remember it.

p/s:: credit for MR. I

HaPpY Day

2008-09-22T14:02:00.002+08:00

today i start my day with a BiG SmiLe.. guess what?? i already wish his birthday this morning. thanx to my friend because give me a lot of spirit to built my confident level. haha. sound weird rite?! but it's true. even he just reply the simple word but it's enough for me. as long as he still save my no in his hp rite and he still remember who i am.

p/s:: ^_^

sHouLd i ??

2008-09-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

... wish him?? today is his birthday.. erm.. 20th i think.. ntah a. bla aku ask pendapat my friend ade yang kate wish.. ade gak yang cakap jangan wish.. aku pon da pening da.. tapi aku memang nak wish gak.. lantak a die nak pikir pe... janji ku da wish birthday die..

p/s:: wissh me luck !! ^_^

18th

2008-09-18T11:24:00.003+08:00

... days in ramadhan.. huhuhu. sekejap je da 18 ari. ade ag lebih kurang 12 hari lagi je nak RAYA. hihi. best2. then, cam biasa a. bila tym2 nak raya ni memg banyak kad raya yang sampai. aku pon ada gak dapat. huhu. da a pepagi buta 'posmen' tak bergji da anta kad raya kat aku. hahaha.. lawak a ko fathin ske wat keje sambilan. hahaha..btw.. thanks to "PRINCESS VINA" coz bagi ku kad raya. atlest le a gak rasa nak raya. kalau tak tak rasa pape pon. takde mo0d raya a dok kat SHAH ALAM ni. aduh...

pSycHoTiC

2008-09-15T15:10:00.003+08:00

WARNING !!
who's have any pSycHoTiC please DoN't ReaD tHiS !!

=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=+=

that i'm HyPoCriT3??
never show the real who am i..
who am i??
nobody know the real m3..
just m3, myself and i know who am i..
it's sound like psycho rite..
but it's true..
Za3RyN is the type of people that don't want everybody know the real H3R
it is CrU3L??
cruel to all people that know m3..??
errmm.. i don't think so..
it's 1 of my RuL3..
N3V3R show the real F33LiNg, the real L0V3, the real M0oD, the real W0Rd
it's not my FauLt..
i N33d some privacy
so, it's the way i can get my 0Wn privacy..

p/s:: to all that read this please don't ask m3 why??!! because now u r in my WORLD.. @_@

MiRacLe

2008-09-13T16:09:00.004+08:00

i realy need it so muchhh..
i realy pray to ALLAH.. please give me a M.I.R.A.C.L.E..
now, my life is empty. nothing special for me.
family?? friend?? relationship?? study??
all away from me. nothing for me.
why my life is so damn...??!!
i never had the special moment along my life. always the hurt that i get.
my life is so boring.
please give me something that can make my life become more happy, full of smile, and that something can make me proud to my OWN life.
but its such a dreaming ONLY
its like not will become come true
its just in 'H3AV3N'
no problem, no sadness, no hurt, no sick
just move through your life forever
no need to thinking of

now the only one that can i hope is...
someone that can change the entire of my life
someone that can make me feel happy (just like 'I' do for me)
someone that can remove all the H.U.R.T terms in my hearts

please send them for me... amin..

aLoNe bY M3

2008-09-09T17:53:00.004+08:00

that what i'm feel N.O.W !!
do you ever need someone by ur side??!!.. How do you tell them that you love them when you think they can't love you back

MeNtaL

2008-09-04T20:13:00.003+08:00

hihi.. saya agak mental. huhu. ntah a tak tau nak cakap pe. semalam ku wat lab pharmacy agi. buat emulsion ngan chloroform water. hihi. tapi malang nye emulsion tu tak jadi. huhuhu

proses emulsion dibuat.. huhu

last product [kiri]emulsion yang kurang jadi

[kanan]chloroform water

me n my 'sayang'

TiReD..

2008-09-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

... sangat2 ari ni. ari ni baru 2nd day puasa. tapi gile penat a. pagi tadi ingat nak jalan kaki a. da separuh jalan ade plak hamba allah ni tumpang kan gi kolej. da tu pe ag. naik la. so da bajet energy tok ari ni. da tu class biochem n math plk batal. and ade plak ag sorang hamba allah ni ajak ku balik condo, ku pon tetiba ter'nak' plak ikot die balik. sebab posa kot. hahaha.. ku pon balik, tapi petang ade calss alternative medicine plak. da kene g balik. da a jalan kaki. gile penat. tak tedaya ku. tapi yang teror nye. siap le jalan kaki balik agi pas abis class tu. hahaha. tapi bila sampai uma petang tu dekat kol 4.45 da. tros ku flat kat atas katil.. tak larat gile.. tapi tadi buka best. buka ramai2 ngan housemate len. ade VINA, SUHA' and FATHIN. dorang a teman ku bebuka tadi. best gak a..

p/s:: sok nak sahur pe ek?? hihihi any idea?? sila undi sms ke 232323.. n_n

RaMadHaN

2008-08-31T23:23:00.003+08:00

huhuhu.. da PUASA sok. aduh penat seh. da a baru balik dari johor, sok plak da puasa. penat !! penat !!. semalam MERDEKA.. tak gi sambut pon. da nak sambut mende nye. da dok dalam hotel je malam tadi. hihi. tapi takpe a. janji dapat ngok kat tv pon jadi la.. herm..
now nga kelam kabut wat assignment MATH. selasa da kene anta.. 1 ape pon ku tak wat agi.. uhuuhu.. k a.. nak wat keje hihihi.. ADIIOOSS !!

p/s::: sok puasa da kena bangun sahur... NGANTOKKK !!!!

sLeEpY

2008-08-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

i'm so SLEEPY TODAY

ngantok nye ri ni. tak tau a apsal. pagi tadi ade 1 class je. class math. tapi abis cepat. thn ku tak larat nak tunggu suma2, ku teros balik uma. sampai uma ingat nak tido. em, tak tido pon. on9 jap then ingat nak teroskan niat nak tido. pastu ade plak hamba allah ni mengacau hidop aku. da aku tak le tido. actually sok ku ade quiz BIOCHEM. konon2 nak baca malam ni, tapi ape kan daya ngantuk plak. so pas post blog ni, rasa2 cam nak beradu je.. hihihi

S.I.C.K ...

2008-08-23T21:42:00.002+08:00

i'm so sick now. nta a. macam2 ku pikir now. pasal study, family, friendship, relationship.. suma a. ntah a. kadang2 letih gak pikir suma benda2 tu. cam tak berfaedah pon. sekadar menyemakkan otak je.

SeCreT

2008-08-18T09:45:00.003+08:00

Kadangkala aku rasa ingin luahkan segalanya

Rahsia yang tersimpan di dada sekian lama

Namun kelu terus membisu menatap wajahmu

Daku malu tapi tak mahu kehilanganmu

Ucapkanlah cinta

Ucapkan, ku saja yang kau perlu setiap waktu

sepanjang hayatmu

Ucapkan kau rindu

Daku yang kau mahu

Yang kau cari telah kau temui

Ku tidak tertahan lagi untuk ku mengaku cintamu

Dan kadangkala kita hanya sedar keindahannya

Apabila ia sudah tiada di depan mata

Tidak rela kulepaskan satu-satunya insan

Yang berikan ku segala makna kehidupan

Andai daku kau terima lebih dari kawan biasa

Daku kan setia tak ku benarkan kau berairmata

Andai kau terima cintaku

Daku kan belaikan tanganmu

Di penghujung waktu kau dan aku di dunia

wHiSpEriNg CoRriDoRs III

2008-08-17T16:36:00.003+08:00

AKA

여고과담 3: 여우계단

Yeogo goedam 3: Yeowoo gyedan

Whispering Corridors 3: Wishing Stairs

Summary

Two friends at art college studying ballet find themselves competing for a single placement to go to a dance school in Russia. An urban legend about the staircase heading towards the dormitory building says that if you go up all twenty-eight steps and find a twenty-ninth, then you can ask for a wish to be granted and Yun Ji-seong knows just what she wants to wish for. But unknown to her, the wishing stairs have consequences, and she's about to find out the hard way.

Cast

Ji-hyo Song - Yun Ji-seong

Han-byeol Park - Kim So-hie

An Jo - Eom

Hye-juJi-Yeon Park

Han Yun-jiSu-a

Hong Ji-min

Kwak Jung-Hee Moon

comen dr ku:::
actually cite not scary at all. bosan ade. wasted my time je mendownload benda alah ni. ish. serius ku cakap a kan. memang tak puas ati ku. tajok le tahan seram. but pada hakikatye tak menggambarkan langsung ceritanye..
tapi ade a gak mesej yang tersembunyi disebalik cita ni. it is about friendship. klo da kawan tu tak yah a nak dengki2. doa kan je kebahagiaan and kejayaan kawan tu. tak elok dengki2 ni. le bahaya kan diri sendiri je.

p/s:: da gila cite horrow now. da lupa da awk tu baru pas exam.. huhuhu ^_^

CaRt0oN

2008-08-17T08:03:00.003+08:00

haha.. begini la adat student pabila abis exam. tak kira a mid term ke final ke. same je. tapi bila mid term a yang paling menyerlah 'kegilaan' nye, bcoz still ade dengan teman2 seperjuangan yang same2 gile. hihi. actually gini. kan ku baru je abis exam mid term, and tetiba plak dak diploma pon takde cuti. so kena la menetap kat SHAH ALAM tercinta ni ngan kwn2 yang sedia gila dulu, kini, dan selamanya. ku terpaksa tinggal kat uma ni ngan 3 orang ag. fathin, ika and suha'. tapi semalam yang melayan kegilaan ku fathin a. ntah a. ku pon tak paham camne ku le segile gitu. ku asa b4 this takde a sampai camtu. ku becakap je. ku cakap pe yang ku asa nak cakap. merepek meraban ntah pape ntah. yang si fathin ni plak dok melayan sape suro. last2 die yang tak tahan. haha.. lawak a ko fathin. yang dia tu asyik2 senyum. tak mara plak. cam takde prasaan lain. asyik senyum je.

>>antara bukti kegilaan ku smalam. hanya ini yang dapat dirakamkan. tapi yang ni xda a gila sangat actually. hanya 0.1% je.. hahaha

ngok a tu. tuala pon le jadi prop nak menggewdixx.. ahax

aihzz.. dalam taxi pon jadi. ish2. cute x? haha

tHe eNd

2008-08-15T21:58:00.003+08:00

hahaha.. done my exam.. i like it !!! ahax.. but so sad.. just for this time only.. T_T
Pagi tadi exam math ngan alternative medicine. malam tadi ku risau gile nak jawab alternative paper, tapi tadi da terbalik plak. mana tak nye, ku lagi confident jawab alternative paper dari math paper. aduh ku da tension da. takot nye ku kantoi math. tak mau a repeat next sem. takot seyh.. aduh.. tadi time jawab alternative paper gile confident. sebab le jawab suma. haha. tak sangka beb ku le jawab. berkat study 3 hour before exam.. hahaha.. klaka nye la dak ni kan. cam cartoon. pape pon actually ku le jawab suma paper. takde a yang blank time jawab exam. suma OKAY je...
FUUHHH !! lapo gile ari ni. dari pagi tak makan. pastu tadi cuma makan fast food je and roti. aduh.. sedihnye la kan..

p/s:: ngantok nye....

eXaM !!

2008-08-14T14:41:00.002+08:00

malas a nak study...camne ni...??sok tinggal 2 paper..
MATHEMATIC FOR MEDICAL SCIENCE I & ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE..
pastu abis da.. ye!! ye!!
da a nak out... nak study !!

StaLkeR !!

2008-08-14T11:08:00.004+08:00

GUEST WHO??? S.H.E !!!

ntah a ku pon xtau nak mention camne dorang2 ni. ramai sangat.. bia a ia jadi rahsia ku.. ku cuma nak kongsi cite about mereka2 je now... ku nak kate lama kenal dorang2 ni tak la lama sangat.. baru pon tak ah baru sangat..
tapi ade a setahun.. kisahnye, dorang ni selalu klo nak tau about ku mesti die tak ask direct kat aku.. dorang mesti ask orang lain.. dorang tak berani nak ask ku depan2 tapi sibuk sangat nak tau hal aku.. ey.. rimas tol ade orang macam ni.. apsal la ku slalu jumpa orang2 sebegini.. da la ku memang tak ske orang tau hal personal aku.. hanya mereka2 yang tertentu je yang le tau..
tapi yang dorang nak tau sangat about life ku tu apsal?? da takde keje lain ke ape.. pegi la tumpukan kat BF2 korang tu.. tak yah nak tau BF aku tu sape orang nye... sukati aku la nak couple ngan sape.. yang U all nak tau sangat sape die tu napa??!!
lantak korang la wahai 'stalker'2 sekalian.. klo korang nak tau sangat pasal ku sila ask ku sendiri okay.. jangan jadi penakot tapi berani kat blakang aku.. ewah.. sukati korang je..

p/s:: baik korang berhentikan je keje2 kurang berfaedah korang tu.. ske sangat amik tau hal orang lain.. jaga a life korang sendiri yang sedia kelam kabut tu..

Last Angel

2008-08-11T11:16:00.002+08:00

Welcome to nightmare world tonightShout a warning,

come on tonight (x2)Yeah

hitori kurayami aruitekita

atari mae no nichijou kurikaesu koto akita Oh please

ushinatta risou torimodoseru hazu

konya wa saishuu Caution atomodori wa shinai

ima sugu ni Come on tonight

ima nara maniau kamo Break out alright

shinjite Come on tonightkimi to nara Alright

saigo made Come on tonight

te wo komaneite miteru dake nara

koko ni wa mou iranai kiete I say good-bye

kanjiteiru nara massugu mitsumete meikyuu iri no Story toite miseru kara

ugokidase Come on tonight

dare ni tamesareteiru? Truth or lie

kowaseru Come on tonight

soko kara wa Alright

kujike sou ni naru yuuki demo kitto Realize

isshyo nara koete motto mukou e Baby, Come on tonight

kikoeteru? Everybody

itami ni tachiagari

hateshinakute mo Own way

tobira hiraku toki

yume to iu na no New day

sekai wa me wo samashi

otozureru hazu I pray

hikari wa yomigaeru

eien ni Save you baby kono ai wo Uh believe me

ima sugu ni Come on tonight

ima nara maniau kamo Break out alright

shinjite Come on tonight

kimi to nara Alright

ugokidase Come on tonight

dare ni tamesareteiru? Truth or lie

kowaseru Come on tonight

soko kara wa Alright

ima sugu Come on tonight

eXaM WeEk

2008-08-11T11:05:00.002+08:00

TENSION WEEK OF ME!!! aduh sungguh tension during exam week. tp ari ni xda exam ag. exam ku tuesday, wednesday, and friday. tu yang menggatal ari ni on internet. td ku sempat download lagu LAST ANGEL by KODA KUMI feat TVXQ.best gle a lagu ni. aku lebih suka featuring version than solo version of TVXQ.
ok2.. ku nak out dulu. mau study beb. esok da exam. k.. annyeong !!!

CoMpeTiTioN

2008-08-10T21:38:00.005+08:00

9 august 2008..semalam a.. aku dipaksa untuk menjadi judge untuk 1st aids competition.. bukan ku tak ske. tapi bila jadi judge tu gile gaban bosan nye.. kena duduk je.. pastu ske2 ati je a nak letak mark berapa kt dorg.. semalam ku jaga check point tok choking case. lagi la bosan. coz benda tu senang sangat. dorang pon buat benda tu kejap je da siap.. pastu ape lagi. melangut a ku sensorang ngadap muka participant yang toya2 belaka. aduh tension beb. da a hadiah souvenir plak ntah pape. aduh tension aku. naseb a balik tu ayah blanja makan klo x, hangin gak aku.the place that the competition will b held

the 'victim' in this competition

me with 'choking victim'

it's the way CPR process

HaRi YaNg SuRaM

2008-08-06T21:59:00.007+08:00

ari ni tak tau a pe yang salah nya. pagi tadi ngantok gile. ku da tido berulang-ulang kali. then ku terpaksa menerima kenyataan bahawa ku terpaksa pergi ke kelas pada pukul 12 tengah hari. hihi poyo gile ayat aku. petang plak ada lab pharmacy practice. ari ni best sangat sebab wat 2 jenis ubat. yang 1st syrup folic acid tok treat anemia and yang 2nd cream zinc oxide tok skin irritation. best sangat coz ubat yang aku wat menjadi setelah penat lelah aku menenyeh ubat2 tu.

aku ade upload anta aksi2 yang sempat di rakam kan semasa proses compounding td..

hasil akhir compounding yang aku buat

proses buat lavigation untok buat cream

ni plak proses weighing ingredient

p/s:: pic ni hanya di dalam lab university je.. dalam real lab mana le cam ni.. COMOT !! ahaks..

NeW FaMiLy

2008-08-05T18:56:00.003+08:00

NAMA : MUHAMMAD NABIL

DOB : 28 JULY 2008

p/s:: don't be jealous. his my new 'bf' ok. don't take him from me!! i warn u all!! ^_^

=really miss him. i really want to kiss him, hug him, talk to him, and meet him. sayang, i miss u !!

iN uR HaNd

2008-08-04T18:54:00.002+08:00

Where are you? I miss you. I can't get you out of my life. I never imagined i'd be here all by myself. I'll always be waiting. Babe, you are the only one for me. Cuz baby, you make my life complete.
I would do anything. To hear your voice and always be with you. You are the one that fills me up with joyfulness. I gave my heart to you because you are my lovely melody. We are one, you are like a dream come true.
Lonely, I was alone. Untill you came in my life. Without you, babe, it's so hard because I need you here by my side. You are my everything. There's no one that could take your place. Come to me. The only thing I want in my life is you..

Z a e r y n

Annyeong~ ^^

Two Thousand Eleven

Happy Birthday

Good Nite darl...

Jiwa Kacau

Comeback

Mummy

Intoxication

Let it be...

People say

"when your world seems to become dark and crashing down, and the people you thought you trusted have betrayed you, you just need to SMILE. Smile, and make them wonder why."

The problem now is.. when we were betrayed with someone that we TRUST.. i dont think that we can smile again... the pain is so deep... its need a special treatment.. its cant be treated by the word SORRY..

But some ppl say that...

"Never trust people"

Then how about our family? we cant also trust them? Then with who we need to trust?

For me, I will do trust ppl that I think I can share everything to them. I'm is a type of person that easy to trust ppl *myb*.. that's why I always getting hurt if ppl that I TRUST was betraying to me.. *sigh*

Nothing to say la... it's what ppl are.. never appreciate what they have.. never thanks if they get something good.. never say sorry if they really need to.. never look what 'inside', just look at the 'outer' part..

p/s:: this post is related to my friend.. i've think about her.. that why this post was release.. hoho *peace darl*

Yay~!!!

Last word NOT The end

Lie

my heart's word

How Could U

suka suki

Will be mine???

Dear GOD

They Love Me

Fake Smile

Endless Moment

Heart~s

Action vs Scary Date

Forgiven

Tanjobi Omedeto~!!

How it Feels

Bad Person

Love Story

Pathetic Weekend

Vivarian

Blank

FOOL!!

Happy beday!!!

Mad at YOU!!!

being a joker [UPDATED]

being a joker

when it comes

Raya

Time To Back

090909

Happy bored day + TAG

Fasting time

Again

Basic

Life Record

Heaven

Unknown

Messy

So Boring

Yummy2!!

please tell me why

Cancelations

TAG

Multitasker

Lost

Taking Care

DAMN

addicted

Unknown

stupid???

emptiness

imagination

teacher's day

past time

rumor

someone's problem

people vs human

end of time

come back

jangan bilang tidak

top secret

For me, I will do trust ppl that I think I can share everything to them. I'm is a type of person that easy to trust ppl myb.. that's why I always getting hurt if ppl that I TRUST was betraying to me.. sigh

p/s:: this post is related to my friend.. i've think about her.. that why this post was release.. hoho peace darl